So have any women here secretly, or not-so-secretly, imagined gaining weight?

It was/is a big thing for me. From my teen years to the age of 21 it was a fascination / fantasy that I imagined and explored in ways like watching videos are reading stuff online but as a young adult I followed through on my 'desires' I guess you'd say. I loved gaining from 130lbs to 160-165 and felt ok to go a bit beyond that. I would say I was fat at 170-180lbs and maybe should have stopped myself there. Over the next couple of years I creeped up to and past 200. At my heaviest weight I was 226lbs and I didn't like that so much, I got down to around 205-210 range and trying to stay there now. In an ideal world maybe I'd go down to 180 or so again.

There are a few here, too.

My gf did that.