If someone breaks your heart would you no longer consider dating?

Just be careful, those bruises take longer to heal the second time around 🤗💜@rckt148

@BalmyNites I had a heart attack ,I didn't eat for 30 days and they put me in the nut ward saying I was trying to commit suicide by starvation when she left me
There were circumstances that caused her to give me an ultimatum
I am not the one to make threats to ,,
Now she is in the same boat ,,she has 2 kids she is basically raising alone
She has a man ,but he is a gamer ,,she has to put her kids in day care so she can work ,he won't watch them at all
She works nights ,he works days ..so she never see's him

I was still helping my sons Mom ,I let her stay with me like a roommate
She wanted her gone ,,I was letting her stay here for our son

But she knows I am a good Dad ,and kids love and listen to me
her kids are a little out of control (Her daughter was born 3 months early ,spent a year in the Nic U ) so she is spoiled
But they took right to me ,,her son wanted a hug and wants me to hold him
she says he never takes to anyone like that

But now its her who has a choice to make
But I know how she loves me ,,she put up with the ex in our lives for 7 years before she said enough was enough ,,and she was right ,,I put up with it for my son ,,who she practically raised ,,my sons Mom sucked as a Mom
that is why I feared her taking him anywhere
But she has done OK after all ,,not a role model Mom but our son is happy

She said being with me was easy ,,it was my sons Mom she couldn't take anymore ,she was an addict

Now she is out of the way ,she has her own life
Everyone knows my Baby is unhappy ,and I know I can fix that
Its just do I want to ,,but I have envisioned myself asking her to marry me
She said there is no way in hell she would marry him ,,they fight to much
we never fought ,except over my sons Mom

Now she can understand ,,but she knows I make a killer Dad ,all my kids and grand kids not only love me ,,they respect me
I helped raised 3 of them

It sucks I feel this way ,,I wish I had stuck to my guns saying I never wanted to see her or speak to her again ,,this is why
I knew she would never be happy with anyone else either ,,we were deeply in love ,,she should have never given me an ultimatum
I will cut my nose off every time to show ,,no on controls me
I will face hell for you ,,if I am asked ,,I don't do threats
I don't run or back down
I can take a lot of pain ,,but nothing is worse then a broken heart
Who I am dies and I take a long long time to recover
so I know full well ..I am putting a lot on the line
If she hurt me again ,,there would be no coming back from it
I am strong ,but she is my weakness
I hate being like this ,,I am the rock everyone else turn to
Everyone who seen me seclude myself for 2 yrs and they couldn't help me is worried ,,but they also see I am happier then I have been in years
I have missed my best friend so bad
I am leaning toward she is worth the risk

I wish you good luck my friend, only you know how you feel deep down in your heart & no one else can tell you how to live your life. We all have our own path to walk, but perhaps just keep a little tiny bit of yourself back, for safe keeping, just until you know you can build a trust with her again. Self preservation 💜❤️@rckt148

@BalmyNites 🤗🤗❤️

@sspec Thank you so much for you're concern
You know when we say things out loud ,it gets into our brain easier
I had another long talk with my daughter about this this evening
I had a vision that a female would side track me ,,even cost me my life
my sons Mom and this girl fit the bill ,except I didn't die
But I came real close
When I was wanting to die over loosing her I called out to God
I know many say he is not real ,well thats an opinion ,I have my own
I asked if He wouldn't heal me of the pain ,why not just kill me and get it over with
And just as if He was sitting next to me on the couch I heard
"the next time I say no ,you will listen "
Now I know some don't believe I had a vision that warned me a woman was going to try to destroy me ,,My sons Mom got me to stop preforming
(My Girls and I had a contemporary Gospel group ) I stopped going to church at all ..I went through 13 days of hell /withdraw when my sons Mom stole my Methadone (I was on 60 mg a day for pain )so I decided to get off them
I was not going to allow a drug I was on for pain ,make me so sick if I didn't have them ..I almost died ,,it was hell
When this girl left me I lost my Mom too in January ,she left me in November
I had a heart attack and was baker acted ,,
Both made me change ,and both almost killed me
So I am going to the Lord about it ,,and if He says NO
I will listen
I am friends with all my ex's except 1
She did after all make the choice to leave me
But I am sure this will not be the last day I keep this on my mind
It sucks having a memory that won't let you forget crap
Thank all of you who have read my ramblings ,and been so supportive 🤗🤗❤️

@rckt148 Please be careful. Not everyone deserves a second chance, especially when they hurt you so deeply, but only you know what's best for you. I wish you well.

@sspec 🤗🤗❤️

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