Trying to distract myself with this hot guy

That I don't believe really likes me that much 😕 . So I stop wanting this other guy that is married 😬. He likes me to and everyone notices! They point it out regularly 😔🤫😖. He has said things to me to confirm it as well 🙃😔. I have all kinds of mixed feeling about this situation .he has also become one of my best friends I don't want to loose but know it will have to happen sooner or later.
He is married so I would never go as far as to be sleeping with him or even hanging out together alone (even tho I really want to 😞) I will not be come a homewrecker!

Why is this happening 😔 I am sad and upset with myself for the feelings I have and the things I want 😞.