What is happening to me?

I kept running into relationships with the guy being mentally unstable and I'm supposed to act happy about how they treat me or something. I'm tired of the circle arguments we kept having. I'm tired of being cursed at and disrespected whenever I show enough is enough. I'm tired of him using jealousy as an excuse to ruin my night when I'm out at my business celebration or meetings. We're not doing good. We never was. It just got bad with the arguments because I'm speaking up about what's been hurting me, etc.

I have been tired and irritable. I want to break things, I want to break down and cry and I want shut off all contact and fly to another country for a vacation with no contact from anyone that I know. I'm so tired and I'm tired of saying I'm tired.

We're looking for a relationship councilor at the moment.

If this don't work out I learn my lesson of being to nice and naive and will start watching out for these guys because they're easy to spot now