Birthdays and my ex

Tomorrows my birthday , yes, I'm a Xmas Eve baby. Part of me is dreading Tomorrow, remembering the way I had planned my birthday with Ashleigh, my ex, part of me as expected wishing she was there of course, but also, knowing deep down that not hearing from her tomorrow or Xmas, is just another reminder that she loved me, let me bond with her son and then just ran the moment I wasn't there in person.

I think I'm still angry that she dumped me over text, and if I hadn't text her and text her to tell me why she just went radio silent, she would've just vanished without a word

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Strike30 · M

I dont want to sound rude or make it more painfull than you are already feeling. But in my experience feeling this way hurts less than recieving a message from her which brings it back heavier.

HeWhoLaughs · 26-30, M

@Strike30 i think for me, at that point i almost still wanted her to still message me, now, idk if i could face her anymore, but even then, i was still wanting her back

Strike30 · M

I get the feeling. With my ex I was more mad probably. But my ex knew how much I wanted to spend my bday with her. And we broke up a month before. She still texted me a day before my bday. And the anger just came back