Do you ever feel alone?

When you're surrounded by other people. Even people you love, and love you. Do you still feel completely and utterly isolated from their affections? I have this persistent feeling; a missing depth to the bonds with those around me. I think I've built walls over the years that I never let down for anyone. I don't know, all I know is that I'm tired of feeling this way. It's really depressing never feeling like you are close to someone. 😞

Having one of those days where it's really getting me down.

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GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M

Si.

Pseudonym · 26-30, M

@GeistInTheMachine Well, at least we can wallow together.

GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M

@Pseudonym Eh, wallowing is overrated.

What we have to do is come up with a plan.

Or something.

Hmm. I dunno.

Pseudonym · 26-30, M

@GeistInTheMachine You catching me off guard with this alien arse productivity stuff man.

Okay. I know I could start by being a better fucking human being. To be honest, I'm a really shit friend, and do myself no favours. Part of the problem is that I'm feeling trapped in my current relationship, and I really have nobody to talk to about it.

I'm sick of smiling and pretending I'm alright when I'm not. I never see my friends any more because every time I do, they know something is wrong straight away. And I just can't stand sitting there for hours while they interrogate me about my relationship and how my life is. I know they mean well, but it just makes me feel even worse.

I think I need a clean break. I just need to get away and clear my head. All I ever do at the moment is bloody work and I'm stressed to my fucking eyeballs. I feel like I can't live because my balls are clamped in the vice of commitment piled on top of a whacking great mortgage. For fuck's sake. There is just nothing I look forward to. Literally. I have no happiness I'm currently working towards. I'm just working to stay afloat.