Why do I always do this with dating???? 😭

I am 22 years old never been kissed never been on a real date.

I talked to this one guy for weeks last winter and he was so sweet and I faced my fear of going on my first date and just went for it. Thought we would be watching a movie on the couch but we ended up watching the movie on his bed and it was so so uncomfortable. And he was nice but oh my guy his hands and lips kept touching my body and I just felt gross but I froze and waited until the movie was over to leave


I love talking to a guy on dating apps but when they get to the point let’s go on a date and meet in person I get terrified just really scared to put myself out there. I’m so freaking scared. So I either block them or make up some lie that I’m busy this week etc.


What is wrong with me 🙈🙈🙈🙈