what do you do when u feel like ur annoying someone by loving them?

@SW-User why do u stay with her?

@HannahBannah good question, for a lot of reasons. It’s so hard to let go of someone you love deeply even if she does me more harm than good, she has pretty much sucked my heart back to her when I was suicidal and when she had me trapped,vulnerable alone and nowhere to go,she has me in that trap. I’m secretly putting money away each week and as soon as I have enough to get a place, I’m out. I feel guilty for doing this because I’m away I feel like I’m leading her on but on the other hand she had led me on for 5 years, treating my heart like a carrot on a string and I’m the donkey. Or maybe I feel like it’s the kind of love I truly deserve.