God what do u actually want?

I imagine a handsome, good-natured person as my lifepartner and you actually bring such guys into my life, only with an exception that i cant be with them for real cuz i live in a conservative family. Would you actually let me live my life with such a person or make me realize how miserable my life is. Its like you're showing me this tasty lolipop and that lolipop wants to come to me but you remind me that i cant do what i want becoz of my dominating parents. Please for once make my dreams a reality.