I need help

I hate the way I am. I'm not in a relationship but have had 'encounters' with my coworker, and we are actual friends too we hang out n stuff. But she also has a bf.
I realize my flaws, I'm sacred of her leaving when she's done with me, I have a fear of letting go. And I get upset when I know she's with her bf and act immature and start a fight to get attention. It's hard admitting this, but I want to change it and need advice to be more self reliant.

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Mamapolo2016 · F

If you are in a relationship with someone who has a pre-established alternative, counting on them to be there when you need them is masochistic.

The only way to protect yourself is either to relinquish that relationship and find one where you come first, or convince yourself you don't care.

Are you sure it's not the drama that appeals to you?

Plumouter · 26-30, M

@Mamapolo2016 I absolutely hate drama so I don't think so. I try to find one where I come first but that's hard to come by