@TotalMiss thank you
It’s more than that. Trigger words trigger an emotional response to the thought of being abandoned even when someone says goodnight.
Then I get angry and emotional.
And I can’t control it unless I vent my fear.
My whole life I have been motivated by it controlled by it.
I have conquered so many fears but the fear of intimacy and trusting people is up there with the fear of death.
I’m ok with death.
And I think I have conquered this one also.
There is a beautiful world out there waiting for me to go and explore it.
I won’t let the negative emotions turn me into someone I don’t like.
If he has to leave then I have my dignity and won’t stand in his way.
But I know he loves me.
That’s why I conclude in my opinion
That my emotional response is irrational according to my logic.
But thank you for your support 😘 means a lot.