Am I a bad person for liking this girl?

My last year of college I met this wonderful girl, who made me feel things I haven't before. For the first time in my life I felt like I was capable of being loved, the way she treated me nicely instead of taking advantage of me. She had her own problems, suffering from anxiety and severe depression. She had an abusive boyfriend, who almost pushed her to the point of suicide on multiple occasions. I broke up their relationship. Some time later my friendship with her deteriorated, I tried to both be her friend, but she already knew I was interested in her myself. She pushed me away, and severed all contact with me. I asked around why, and apparently my messaging once a week became annoying to her. She had many new boyfriends since, and it always hurts me because I know I can never be loved the way she loves those other guys. I still have mutual friends who tell me what's going on in her life, even though she want's nothing to do with me a year after we last spoke. I have had thoughts of ending my life to make the hurting of her absence stop. I just feel so incomplete, and empty knowing we can't ever be together. I've even resigned myself to the fact that no one else can love me, and it would be better to avoid any future involvement in romantic relationships with anyone else because no one else has treated me as nicely. I have good friends who did convince me she isn't the only light in my life, but she was such an important light I can't feel whole again without her.

Ladywiththepants · 31-35, F

There is clearly an entirely other side to this story, and not to be an ass, your story doesn't add up to probably what is actually going on. All I read when I read this is someone who is obsessed with a girl, and your obsession is making her feel uncomfortable and possibly unsafe. I sense that you have mentioned suicide to her or for someone to tell her, to attempt to manipulate the situation. It's time you man up, realize that not everyone has reciprocating feelings in terms of love, and understand that just because one person isn't interested in you, doesn't mean no one else ever will be. Not to mention, even if someone did have feelings for someone else at one time, doesn't mean those feelings can't change. Get some help before you show up on the news.

Razoreye001 · 31-35, M

@Ladywiththepants No one else knows I considered that in the past, I couldn't confront my friends telling them I felt that way. I also make rules for myself to keep myself from going too far.