You ever miss someone so bad it hurts?

@SW-User Yes, and no. The ones I mss are dead. There's nothing to do but live with the truth of it. Your situation is far different.

@SW-User No. You are a mother. You're hurting for a good reason. That is the definition of being a mother and of sanity. I'd wonder about you, if you weren't feeling as you do. And I'd worry, too. Because I know you for the sensitive, loving person you are, I'd be afraid the pain would be too much, as you were feeling last week. If you don't start learning to live with it, you will go crazy or die. Either way, you won't be there for the girls, when they can finally be there with you. And if you were to kill yourself, that betrayal would hurt them, intensely.

@SW-User Just remember. You love them, and they love you and you're no good to them if you're dead.

I'm here for you. We can talk. Anytime you wish. Just try to remember, they will be needing you. Even if it is only a few times a year.