I keep dreaming about my ex.... crap

right now I'm exhausted from all of this dreaming. I had dreamt of seeing him but it wasn't really to pleasent. I saw him and I was in shock but i saw he was preoccupied with a black hole in the wall.. Its not a peephole.. This hole had a black mass to it and a girls head was leaning out from it and she looked like she was high on extasy and he went in for it and kissed her. The next thing i did was to gorey to mention.

After that I was in an apartment.. it was so .. weird but also so nice looking.. My room had a outside balcony with glass doors and white flowy curtains. It was beautiful.. I saw my boyfriend and my mom.. I was in my bed and when I woke, I got up to wak to the curtains. And i see my mom and my boyfriend come back up to greet me and there my ex was. As he used to look greeting me with two beer cases. I let out an excited squeal. Looked to my boyfriend and it seemed like he was bothered a little but he seemed like he let the anger go. I hugged my boy and went to my ex. I told him i wanted to talk to him and he agreed... there were many obstacles that prevented us to talk.. which sucked.

Ugh i could go into this about what it means.. or get all spiritual about it. He is spiritual and could have sent me emotions or visions .. I don't know. Dont tell me im overthinking this cause I know i can dream premonitions. I've done it many times.

Its just at the moment.. This feeling. I dont know.