Why do people make it hard for me to accept myself?

Because of my gifts? Because they are unusual? Different? I say I hear Seraphim angels sing and someone will blow up at me in a fit of rage! I tell them God inspires movies about my life and someone will blow up at me in a fit of rage? I stand against psychics because I am an ex psychic who sold my soul because of it and someone will blow up at me in a fit of rage! I'm like your not fooling anyone get behind me satan! But at the same time the damage has been done to my self esteem....Everyone is mad at me for being gifted! It takes away from the joy of these gifts which are truly beautiful.