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Stranger · 46-50, M
ex... it was both the best relationship i ever had, and at the same time the most destructive consuming and crazy experience i could ever have.
In the short span of 2 years I lived with such intensity for them to be worth around 20 years of my dull existance before her. I probably wouldnt be writing this or anything else for that matter if i had not kicked her out of my life. I just wrote the whole story on another thread, i feel it too self serving autopromotion on my par to plaster the site with that story all over the place, but if you're interested, by all means read it here, pics and all
http://similarworlds.com/2-Community/1265417-Is-there-someone-that-you-had-to-kick-our-of-your?rid=14395368
In the short span of 2 years I lived with such intensity for them to be worth around 20 years of my dull existance before her. I probably wouldnt be writing this or anything else for that matter if i had not kicked her out of my life. I just wrote the whole story on another thread, i feel it too self serving autopromotion on my par to plaster the site with that story all over the place, but if you're interested, by all means read it here, pics and all
http://similarworlds.com/2-Community/1265417-Is-there-someone-that-you-had-to-kick-our-of-your?rid=14395368
Sagey47 · 26-30, F
@Stranger I am so sorry.
Your story reminds me much of my parents. You understAnd that you did the right thing? You will miss her for a long time, I know my mom misses and still Loves my dad even though he hurt a lot, also almost to the point of death. It's a very important decisionto make and you did the right thing. Imagine if you'd brought children into this world and she wasn't healthy yet? It's important to see the big picture. You both must be healthy and alive.
I hope you start to feel like living again
Your story reminds me much of my parents. You understAnd that you did the right thing? You will miss her for a long time, I know my mom misses and still Loves my dad even though he hurt a lot, also almost to the point of death. It's a very important decisionto make and you did the right thing. Imagine if you'd brought children into this world and she wasn't healthy yet? It's important to see the big picture. You both must be healthy and alive.
I hope you start to feel like living again
Stranger · 46-50, M
@Sagey47 thank you! Somehow I know it was the right thing to do. I have yet to come to terms with feeling it was right. Shrink says even though I know that it was the rational thing to do, getting her care and support I couldn't and was Ill prepare to provide, deep down I feel it was a miserable world class failure on my part.
Funny thing is I always considered myself to be a rational person, that feelings should play no part in making good decisions. Reality is that whether you like or not, feelings do matter.
So far I've learned not to arrogantly scorn at the phrase "To know it's good but it doesn't feel right".
Funny thing is I always considered myself to be a rational person, that feelings should play no part in making good decisions. Reality is that whether you like or not, feelings do matter.
So far I've learned not to arrogantly scorn at the phrase "To know it's good but it doesn't feel right".