Do you tend to stalk your ex (or someone you were romantically involved with) on social media? Or at least, check how they're doing... without you?

Why am I a masochist and why did I just checked his Instagram again after some months? Like I was doing fine, but idk why I started missing him. Apparently, I like to suffer. I just wanted to see how he was doing... And ended up hardcore stalking him... And the pain came back. My heart hurts really bad right now. I've go this pressure inside my chest that won't let me sleep🙃 Why do I do this to myself?🙂🔫