I Had Crush On Teacher

It was a physical education teacher who broke my heart...I didn't realize I loved him until I found his social media and tietheknot wedding page and realized he had both a fiance, now wife, and a little girl who came into the world recently. I realized I loved him the same time that information broke my heart.I still love him and my heart still hurts to the point I cry a lot of nights and stay up thinking about how much I still love him and how much it hurts.I'm 21 now, I had him between the ages of 17 and 18and I still visit his facebook sometimes, where there is a timeline of his life with his now wife and their daughter.Wedding photos are there now and I want to be happy for him but the last time he saw me, it was for a fewseconds and he barely aacknowledged me before he had his back turned to me and got on the phone with somebody who was likely his than fiance.

It was something about the way he noticed me with his eyes and a tender, kind of a sad look he gave me one time that I think made feelings I wasn't wholly aware of start to grow.I think my heart will be broken and I will love him forever, sometimes I feel like I would do anything for him but he'll never know that because we're forever separated. He probably doesn't ever think of me but I wish I could seehim again.Now all I have are the memories of those fleeting looks he gave me and the time I spent as one of his students in this ice rink area where everyone ice skated.I miss skating close to him then.