I Had Crush On Teacher

It was a physical education teacher who broke my heart...I didn't realize I loved him until I found his social media and tietheknot wedding page and realized he had both a fiance, now wife, and a little girl who came into the world recently. I realized I loved him the same time that information broke my heart.I still love him and my heart still hurts to the point I cry a lot of nights and stay up thinking about how much I still love him and how much it hurts.I'm 21 now, I had him between the ages of 17 and 18and I still visit his facebook sometimes, where there is a timeline of his life with his now wife and their daughter.Wedding photos are there now and I want to be happy for him but the last time he saw me, it was for a fewseconds and he barely aacknowledged me before he had his back turned to me and got on the phone with somebody who was likely his than fiance.

It was something about the way he noticed me with his eyes and a tender, kind of a sad look he gave me one time that I think made feelings I wasn't wholly aware of start to grow.I think my heart will be broken and I will love him forever, sometimes I feel like I would do anything for him but he'll never know that because we're forever separated. He probably doesn't ever think of me but I wish I could seehim again.Now all I have are the memories of those fleeting looks he gave me and the time I spent as one of his students in this ice rink area where everyone ice skated.I miss skating close to him then.

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Jogadnbyt

Reckon you could take the dirty cunt off his wife all day long... 👌

FashionDesign101a · 26-30, F

@Jogadnbyt
Could you clarify what you mean?

Jogadnbyt

@FashionDesign101a like lure him away from his wife and split his family upy😀

FashionDesign101a · 26-30, F

@Jogadnbyt
Well, I have thought of the idea of being his mistress, actually kind of fantazised about it but since we're separated now and there is an innocent child in the picture, I don't think it would be right of me to ever come back around and try anything.However, if he made the first move I probably wouldn't be able to put up much resistance but that would only be so far as getting a kiss at least, though tbh, part of me does want to have his kid.But that wouldn't be practical unless we were really together.Part of me hopes he gets a divorce someday and the relationship comes apart on its own

KayraJordyn · F

Thumbs up on the first part. Thumbs down on the second. @FashionDesign101a

FashionDesign101a · 26-30, F

@KayraJordyn
That's just honesty, what I mean is if it happens naturally, I'd have my hopes that maybe that could be my second chance.That's what part of me wants, but my overall opinion isn't being governed by what "part of me" desires.My true opinion, because I love him, is that his union with her, should be nothing but lifelong and filled with happiness.I want him to enjoy his time with her and his daughter and any potential future children.I know love isn't selfish, so no matter how much it hurts me and no matter the length of emotional suffering for it, I want him to have his true love with her.Unless, it naturally happens otherwise, I want their marriage to last, for his sake.