stupid for hoping

i just wanted to be happy. that’s all i ever wanted. but i was so stupid for believing things would actually change. so stupid for hoping things could get better. i should’ve known better. i always do this to myself. i let myself believe, i let myself care, and now i’m sitting here completely shattered. i’m so done. i’m so hurt i can’t even think straight. i don’t know what i was expecting. maybe i just wanted to feel like i mattered for once. but i was wrong. again.