I deserve another chance

I feel unloved like im always everyones last choice and probably the last one
Like i planned with my friend to come at her place and i told her after i came from the park imma come at her place well i did walk half of the city excited that im going to play with her games and have fun but when i arrived at her door she literally wasnt home i knocked multiple times thinking that she may not hear me then i stayed in front of the apartament estate alone in a weird street full of ppl that may k**l you or do ilegal substances so i was staying there bc i had low battery no mobile data so i didnt had much to do
Then a man came he had a scoch with him and he came in the same apartament estate i was at and i was scared so i ran into the stairs and i cried and i ran till her door i cried and he started to walk faster i literally cried and watched it go to the next floor then i came running to a shop near by literally shaking i could barely talk and traumatised i remember i was shaking while i was talking with the cashier and she called her affter i gave her ,her number and she said that she went with her aunt at some shi fountain then w her classmates at some shop and forgot ab me :(
It really hurt.