Living a lie [I Have Been Cheated On]

When I was a young, 20 year old girl, I dated an older man who turned out to be married to his heavily pregnant wife and they also had a toddler. Luckily, I never fell for him and did't catch feelings, so he never broke my heart. But it broke my heart in another sense...because I struggled to trust a man after this. I never actually thought men could do this, who on earth would have a heart so evil to hurt his beautiful wife and children? Staying out to the early hours of the morning with a good hearted young girl while your pregnant wife sits at home alone with her toddler and unborn child? He considered himself a man when he was nothing more than a fool.

I was too young to be aware of the toxic people in the world... too innocent and good hearted to see the evil potential people had. The words he said to me were probably lies, but he played them well. I broke things off immediately when I found out accidentally, he attempted to get back into my life multiple times but I ended up blocking him on absolutely everything possible. His wife never knew and continued her married life unaware. This is what hurt me the most, thinking your family is perfect and full of love when in fact, it's the opposite. It's nothing more than a well hidden build up of dishonesty, deception and betrayal.

Sometimes I wonder if she was suspicious? I hope she was...because I will never get married knowing men can lie so well that you can't even tell they aren't faithful to you. If I had to see him again, the only thing I would say to him is that even though cheating with younger girls is fun, he is the one who will suffer the consequences and perhaps he can get away with it with his wife, but you CANNOT lie to God. He already knows.