I love him :( i feel like lost if i left... I tried this again because what i felt atleast was true and because we have a child, a chance should be given...but yes i have thought of leaving because im tired of having flashbacks and dreams about it. I dont know if i can live like this so insecure all the time.

Hmmm...a list of why im still with him? ... Okay i guess first is he brought out the best in me when no one else ever did before. I left me ex and my life in cali for him.
I think thats the best someone can do for you is bringing out something so great in you that you didnt know you still had...
Rest of the list, he is funny, he has changed a lot since the cheating really. His son loves him and he is a great father which i admire. I can be myself around him, he fights for me and defends me, he tries his best to get me things i need and want.. He gets everything our son needs... I guess the good was in the beginning and now. The middle when i was pregnant was the worse person he was to me. Then after the cheating and all the apologies, he has been the person i needed him to be from the beginning...

Thankyou🌙

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Yes. Being pregnant speciaply with your first child is supposed to be a happy memorable special thing... It hurts me till this day it wasn't like that. I had trouble all my life forgiving people. I want to change that and i want to be a better person for myself and my son...i dont know how to forgive. Its been months since i found out and i feel like im alone going through something like this. If i chose to stay with him, i feel like i have to not crucify him over it all the time when im upset. I keep doing it and im just ugh...so lost and have so much anger and sadness inside...

@AquariusRose: that is the choice. You have to either be able to forgive and never bring it up or you have to leave and start over. Neither choice is easy and only you can decide what is best. I wish you much luck and happiness.
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if you want a real man message me, ill treat you right