@Lostgirl01: He did, once in the beginning of our relationship. He came clean about it 3 days after. After that I just suspect him of cheating. I guess after the first time, I've been paranoid feeling like he still is.
Yes. Terrible, I know. I've talked to a lot of people about this and I've just been disappointed with a partner cheating being a normal thing. I don't expect for a relationship be like fairytales, but respect and trust are so important to me. To anyone, really. I just can't bear the pain of the betrayal.