I Have Been Cheated On

I have been cheated on. My first love was a 3rd year. We met in freshers week (1st wk of uni) in the it room of our hall. She knew the porters well and they let her stay till midnight. She said how rude of her not to introduce herself. I immediately felt important and valued, and she begged me to go back to her room. Well, I pushed back hard and eventually we agreed (at 5am!) But no s*x. She had a lot of dark places in her life, and it was a rough time for her. I told her I understood her need was great and if I was in lectures I don't care just tell me about it. She couldn't do that. I still cared deeply for her, and when she left me, saying she was in hospital and then never talking to me again - I poured my heart out over sms - WhatsApp was new back then - and soon lost all that beautiful heart throbbing literature because my phone died. I was broken for a couple of years or 3. Now I'm more glad she disappeared than if we stayed in touch. But some kind of explanation would've been nicer still. Hard to deliver though, if you're already broken. That's my story. We haven't spoken since, but I did see her once in our uni town, she was walking so I guess whatever she was in hospital for got better :)