I've Been In Love And Betrayed

We met by accident and I should have known better. I jumped in anyway an was played the fool. She looked at me as just a tool. In the end I knew I was used...but I'm pretty sure I knew it was that way from the beginning. I was the muse. All she had to do was point a guy out and say get that one hun. He was bloody and beat before I was done. It lasted for years and safe she did feel. I am finished.. I am free from fight. I am free from pain...maybe I won?
Why does it matter???