I Have Been In An Abusive Relationship

I was supposed to leave days ago. I had it all planned. We work in the same place and I was going to tell him; give my the keys Im leaving. Secure my stay at a ex coworkers house and tell my bosses I'm taking the rest of the day for an emergency. But never got an answer back from coworker when I sought help, chickened out last minute and tried to hang on again.
I had decided to get out of it as soon as all the abuse subsided. After all the hard hits, choke holds, slaps and demeaning comments. But here I am praying for him to change for him to get help and stay with it. Or make it easier for me to leave. But I'm just here feeling numb. Picked myself back up again and kill him with kindness. I hope and pray for a miracle. All I want is peace of mind and his want for change.

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updown2020 · 61-69, M

Well maybe ask for help that house you were going to go to ask them to come get you from work and just go. Change your cell number make sure you have passwords or all your accounts make sure you do not share any accounts if you do take your name off make sure you do that yourself. If you are on the account you are responsibly for what goes on the account so get your name off.Look for a new job because you cannot work in the same place because you would be a open target for him. You are aware if you go into a hospital they can help you in some states the hospital call the police and the police press charges so you do not have to do anything. The police do not back down. You can do this it's time to get back your life stop allowing him to win. It just mind games. Sorry I do not mean that lightly you can do this and if you need help it there you just need to ask for it. I reported my mother years ago for abuse and I was taken away.