How can I loathe him and still stay?

I always wondered why women stay with the person who hurts them the most. I would watch others and just not make sense if it. I never looked at myself; although, it honestly took years to admit I was a victim.

I shouldn’t still be here , but I stay. Someone has to take care of me. I mean, I make enough money that I could live alone, but I’m not sure my health is up to it anymore. Curse him for taking my self worth and my love for life. *sighs*

And tomorrow will be another day …

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Ontheroad · M

Just a few thoughts...

You write: "I shouldn’t still be here , but I stay." Followed by: "Curse him for taking my self worth and my love for life."

Do you see what I see? There appears to be a dichotomy here. You know you should not be in the relationship, yet you curse him for you staying in it and taking that which you know you should not have given.

Yes, there is much that came before and has gone into what you wrote here. And yes, there are those reasons (maybe more like justifications?) for staying.

Maybe the last statement could read "And tomorrow I will begin to change my life"?

Like I said, just some food for thought. Be good to you, be strong and think what tomorrow could bring if....