I have to find happiness

Well now that I let myself really feel, I feel a bit better. I think what’s been so hard about my current extreme depression and anxiety is not understanding where it’s coming from but I think that is what it stems back to. I’ll have to tell my therapist that. I’m really not sure how you move on. It’s very clear to me that I can’t because I’m still holding onto every damn video every picture everything my ex ever gave me. It was even hard for me to throw away like wrappers from candy. I just threw away this box of tea that had been sitting in my room for almost a year. I have to find happiness without you.