I can't see myself with anyone in the future

Smart…

This is exactly how I felt about a month ago.
Now I’m kind of just numb and wanting to get on with life.

Romance scares me now. I get very uneasy about it just thinking about letting someone really inside me.

I have finally begun talking to women again, but not really flirting.
I guess what I’d like now is to just find someone to hang out with and talk to without any real expectations flowing either way.

I guess if romance develops that could be okay. But I know that the last thing really did a number on me and the thought that I could be so easily discarded again is somewhat terrifying.

Sorry that happened to you

Healing from an abusive narcissistic takes time, years. But it can happen. When you find that good one, that treats you right and loves you, that's healing.

Sorry to hear that, besides you are much better off. Relationships can be toxic if you are not careful. I prefer the single life. After my divorce, the dating pool gets filled with dirt