Maybe I'm in love again...
People often get confused when I love them because they think I love them in a way that I've never loved before and they start thinking they are special, many think they're "the one for me", but what they don't understand is that I love everyone like that, it's them who've never been loved by someone like me and most likely will never be again.
So because I'm loud about being in love and I write think pieces about them and I sing songs thinking about them and I am very direct and quite cheesy when I tell them to their face what it is that I like about them, then they must be special.
I understand I make them feel special because I do it on purpose because I love them, and I fall in love very fast because when I like someone is very easy for me to find things to love about them and the way I love them is never dishonest, because the thing I love the most in this life is loving, being in love, and making sure that person knows I love them and if they love me back that's so fun and so amazing and I'll have the time of my life with them and I'll find more things to love and to teach them to love on themselves.
But I've fallen in love so many times in my life and it's always so fast, and I fall out of it just as quickly, and then I have to live knowing, being painfully aware, being told (because this isn't my ego btw. real people who know my ex partners have said this to my face), that they will be looking to be loved in the same way by other people for a long time after I've forgotten about them, possibly having falling in love again already.
Having said that, 2 of my loves stand out amongs the others, and one of them is very angry that I can still talk kindly about him but not to him, and the other one refuses to let me forgive one mistake he made, that to me isn't that important but he feels deeply guilty about and that's funny because they don't understand how very special they actually are for me. They have no idea that they are my gratests loves, the ones I will always remember, the ones I look for in others.
So because I'm loud about being in love and I write think pieces about them and I sing songs thinking about them and I am very direct and quite cheesy when I tell them to their face what it is that I like about them, then they must be special.
I understand I make them feel special because I do it on purpose because I love them, and I fall in love very fast because when I like someone is very easy for me to find things to love about them and the way I love them is never dishonest, because the thing I love the most in this life is loving, being in love, and making sure that person knows I love them and if they love me back that's so fun and so amazing and I'll have the time of my life with them and I'll find more things to love and to teach them to love on themselves.
But I've fallen in love so many times in my life and it's always so fast, and I fall out of it just as quickly, and then I have to live knowing, being painfully aware, being told (because this isn't my ego btw. real people who know my ex partners have said this to my face), that they will be looking to be loved in the same way by other people for a long time after I've forgotten about them, possibly having falling in love again already.
Having said that, 2 of my loves stand out amongs the others, and one of them is very angry that I can still talk kindly about him but not to him, and the other one refuses to let me forgive one mistake he made, that to me isn't that important but he feels deeply guilty about and that's funny because they don't understand how very special they actually are for me. They have no idea that they are my gratests loves, the ones I will always remember, the ones I look for in others.
