I have no concept of relationship permanence
I used to have it, way back in my naive days.
Relationship after relationship, it slowly eroded away.
When i married my husband, I knew then that the marriage was not going to be forever. I knew there would be an end. I didn't know how or when, only that it would come.
The next longest relationship, I said almost before it started, "This isn't forever." It lasted 7 years then ended.
I watch romance movies where the couples say each other is their's. The assurity in which they proclaim is it thick with confidence. There is no question who their person is.
I have never had this feeling with anyone in my life. At least, not for a very long while. 38 years at least, when i was deep in love with my first boyfriend. Since then, I have never felt that way about another.
I always have wanted to have a relationship that I feel that deepest connection to be able to say without any doubt that person was mine. My person. I want to know what that feels like. To never wonder when the end is coming, knowing that it isn't.
Relationship after relationship, it slowly eroded away.
When i married my husband, I knew then that the marriage was not going to be forever. I knew there would be an end. I didn't know how or when, only that it would come.
The next longest relationship, I said almost before it started, "This isn't forever." It lasted 7 years then ended.
I watch romance movies where the couples say each other is their's. The assurity in which they proclaim is it thick with confidence. There is no question who their person is.
I have never had this feeling with anyone in my life. At least, not for a very long while. 38 years at least, when i was deep in love with my first boyfriend. Since then, I have never felt that way about another.
I always have wanted to have a relationship that I feel that deepest connection to be able to say without any doubt that person was mine. My person. I want to know what that feels like. To never wonder when the end is coming, knowing that it isn't.
