Just more thoughts

I want to put it behind us but we can’t so why do you text? Why not just block me? You’re the only one who hasn’t. Like relationships come and go, crash and burn. I regret everything that happened but I relapsed into alcoholism and I know ppl say you can’t blame alcohol but that night I was so drunk that when my coworker and I took each others clothes off, I fell on the bed. And started passing out. Yes we tried but I was so out of it that I passed out. I got out of the bed sobering up, and immediately called. I didn’t lie. But you broke up with me. So yes I tried to move on, have sex and you hate me so deeply for it but won’t leave.

I was so drunk that my coworker spent that night checking my pulse I genuinely barely remember it. It’s over anyway hell I quit the job I don’t talk to any of them anymore. I was an alcoholic that relapsed from our miserable relationship and you won’t let me have peace