Not over my ex

I’m just not over my ex and I don’t know how to be. It really hurts. Maybe that’s why I drink. I’m dating someone new but I don’t feel anything. I hate being told I love you. I don’t feel the same. But I’ll say it if it’s awkward. I enjoy spending time together. But I’ve said it before, I’m just not there. It hurts a lot. I am blocked now. I knew it was coming. We couldn’t be together right now. I know that but I can’t accept it, not truly..