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The Ball Is In Her Court

So, after not hearing from my girlfriend in nearly two weeks, and being that I owe her money, I was finally able to at least get the ball rolling with paying her off this morning.

After I Zelle'd her the money I texted her simply to notify her that she should see the money, and I requested for her to at the very least confirm that she received it. Since we're supposed to go away next week I told her that if I don't hear from her by Monday I'm going to have to assume the trip isn't happening and I'll cancel our hotel reservation before it goes through.

I know she read the text. It's only 10:18am where I am, so I'm doing my best to not make myself overly nervous, as she's usually at work until 5 and I remember there's a LOT going on there.

While I'm feeling somewhat better than I've been, and while I'm trying to be calm and pragmatic about things, five years of the most special relationship I've ever been in is a scary thing for me to lose.

UPDATE:

After I wrote on this, she responded to me, thanking me for the money and requesting we speak either tomorrow or Sunday, to which I agreed.
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peterlee · M
Gosh poor you . You must be feeling terrible.

But better to end now, than in a divorce court later.
GymRat584 · 41-45, M
@peterlee we're not married, but I appreciate the sentiment regardless. She's the one person I absolutely wanted to marry, but because of her past experience with marriage, she's forever scarred. But I did get her a promise ring on Valentine's Day 2023, which did make her cry happy tears.

I feel helpless and alone. I don't want a pity party because I feel like one or two things I did might've been the final straw for her. What I do wish for is that I was someone other than me.
GymRat584 · 41-45, M
@peterlee quick update: she just now responded to me. She thanked me for the money and requested we speak either tomorrow or Sunday, to which I agreed.
peterlee · M
@GymRat584 I wish you well. There is hope there.

We all have baggage from our pasts.
GymRat584 · 41-45, M
@peterlee oh we sure do!