My desire to be in a relationship is so gross 🤮

You sound so very frustrated. I have to wonder if you're wanting it and having difficulty finding the right person or maybe you get disappointed/let down?

I think its a healthy desire but, I (admittedly) don't know your full situation...

Anything you get from a relationship you can get from friends and family. I haven't been in a relationship for years and I'm happy.

Wanting a relationship isn’t wrong, it’s normal. But when it becomes a fixation, it can distort your sense of self-worth. A relationship should add to your life, not become your life’s purpose. The thought that someone else will make you whole is not true. No one can fill your emptiness, but you.

And remember, no relationship can fix everything in your life. At best, it can offer support, not salvation.
The search for meaning, purpose, and true happiness is your journey ... yours alone.”

I have been single for 6 months.

How about just being content while you are alone for a little while?

It's a pretty normal desire, what's the problem with that?

You say it like its a bad thing to want to be in a relationship

What’s the probleme?

Huh?

People are social animals.

And intimacy is supposed to be like breathing, drinking, eating...