I've realized that...

I'm becoming too attached (emotionally, psychologically, intrinsically) to the people that i work with. I feel like I have the "dream job", but it's not. and I've been searching for that so called myth for years. as well as relationships, friendships, acquaintances and even people within my family. it's a myth. I've become so numb and jaded that I love it, but I hate it.

I keep trying to substitute people who are supposed to care about me, with people who honestly don't see me as a person - but as a person for their mere convenience. as if though I was created for them.
however, I'm not mad. not angry; and I don't feel entitled for whatever I think I'm "owed" for anything. no. fuck that.

I'm becoming too attached to people. people who don't see me as they see themselves: a person.