To my Ex for 6 Years

Yan Panda,

I hope you find this post one day.

I don't even know how to start...

I'm sorry..I know it's not enough and posting it here instead of saying this to you directly won't make any better.

I think I still don't have the courage yet. I was so angry at you that I didn't feel anything when we broke up. I didn't cry or felt any sympathy. It took me years to heal because I felt like I lost myself. I hated everything. Myself, the life and blamed you everything. And I'm sorry.. I know you didn't not deserve how I treated you before. I hate myself just thinking how awful I was to you, how I disrespected you and putting you in sooo much pain. I know I can never bring back what I did to you but with what we had, I learned a lot. These things I'll treasure and with all the good memories we had.

It might have been hard for you before when I left. But I know we both needed that. We both tried to work things out but it came to a point where I know we'll both end up hurting each other even more.

I hope you are doing great now and I hope one day you'll forgive me. You deserve the best things in this world. Just don't give up. 😉

Yours truly,
RFP