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Sorta, but it caused me to be resentful.
I was working years back in a hospital, and a dietician walked past me, a slender brunette with perfect hair and geeky glasses, snd the combination knocked the air out of me. I wasn't able to breathe for a good moment, and she and another dietician (female) noticed, and I regained my composure.
I didn't know her name. But whenever we went by one another I was compelled to sneak a glance at her. There was a long abandoned breakroom and I would use it sometimes, and it was just my place, and saw her start sitting in there and so avoided her. Likewise in the cafeteria I would always sit in the same spot and once she was there and I stood confused for a good 5 seconds processing it, before comprehending I had to go elsewhere. She was often on my mind. He voice instantly clicked in my head.
I didn't like the level of instinctive control she had over me. I later found out she was engaged and eventually this feeling went away. I just mostly avoided her and if I had to interact with her department I went to the fat chick and communicated with her.
I wouldn't say I loved her, just uncontrollably lusted for her on a primal level I had no real control over, and I didn't like that.
I was working years back in a hospital, and a dietician walked past me, a slender brunette with perfect hair and geeky glasses, snd the combination knocked the air out of me. I wasn't able to breathe for a good moment, and she and another dietician (female) noticed, and I regained my composure.
I didn't know her name. But whenever we went by one another I was compelled to sneak a glance at her. There was a long abandoned breakroom and I would use it sometimes, and it was just my place, and saw her start sitting in there and so avoided her. Likewise in the cafeteria I would always sit in the same spot and once she was there and I stood confused for a good 5 seconds processing it, before comprehending I had to go elsewhere. She was often on my mind. He voice instantly clicked in my head.
I didn't like the level of instinctive control she had over me. I later found out she was engaged and eventually this feeling went away. I just mostly avoided her and if I had to interact with her department I went to the fat chick and communicated with her.
I wouldn't say I loved her, just uncontrollably lusted for her on a primal level I had no real control over, and I didn't like that.