In between hating my life

I am angry deep down inside. I am tired of complaining here. I dont have another therapy for awhile. Very upset at my husband. When I married him 2011 he was different. I admit , i was too. He was sweet and wasnt sooo much of a bullshitter as he is now without being sweet. He is rude , condenscending, exaggerates ... tells ppl stories that arent exact facts. Makes me look stupid, With stories from way back. He also is rude to my cousin. I am super tired right now and i am falling asleep. I am afraid of losing physical touch & feel of him with how upset I am of him. I honestly cant control it. And im supposed to spend thur, fri, sat and sunday with him. Ugh ! Not if he actz like this. Im not good at getting over things. I dont understand why he has to be soooo grumpy.

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