love and fear

Being in love the way I currently am is both the biggest blessing and the biggest mental weight I could possibly carry. I spend the majority of my time lost in thought, anxious, replaying memories, things that were said, what they meant when he said it, how it came across when I did, everything. Thinking about where this is leading and how I might one day be haunted by the thought that I couldve done something different. And the worst part is, he doesnt cause this. It's all me

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riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

See in a relationship (you said love)
After awhile the relationship your in and in time
( Your love turns to attachments and desires)
That's where the fear is .
I bet ( on all your thinking alone )
You expect the worst .
That's where the arguments comes in .
( That's if it goes that far).
See in life where always letting go of something .
If you hold on That's where the fear comes in .
I was in a relationship before and towards the end just before it finished you could cut the tension with a knife.
You'd actually feel the other person's energy .
Don't leave it go that far .
I'm not trying to frighten you cause I got a fright when a great friend said to me when I was in a relationship. The person said if they do something wrong in the relationship you won't have to go searching you"ll know .
Unfortunately I knew .
Always be prepared for that .
What destroyed me in the relationship at your age now was the word " forever "
That's the fear you have cause you might think it won't last.
Leave the relationship take it's place .
And always remember the relationship is 50 50 , not 75 25 cause of if it's that way the card will fall.
That's where the pain comes in then .
That's my advise on relationships experiences .