love and fear

Being in love the way I currently am is both the biggest blessing and the biggest mental weight I could possibly carry. I spend the majority of my time lost in thought, anxious, replaying memories, things that were said, what they meant when he said it, how it came across when I did, everything. Thinking about where this is leading and how I might one day be haunted by the thought that I couldve done something different. And the worst part is, he doesnt cause this. It's all me