I feel guarded

I had a nightmare last night. I was freaking out and needed to talk to someone about it but I realised, I don't have anyone.

Times like this makes me think of him. I pretty much isolated myself from everyone while I was with him. It was my choice. I didn’t feel the need to have anyone except for him at that time. I was young and foolish.

I was so dependent on him when it comes to my emotional needs that I’m left scared now that he’s gone.

Why can't he love me the same way I loved him?

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REMsleep · 41-45, F

Never depend totally on one person. Its alot for one person to handle even if they are a good person.
It will put stress and strain on nearly any relationship.
You have learned. And it doesn't matter why he wasn't good. He wasn't and thats the most important thing for you to know. Thats how it will be in life. You won't always know why.