Change is so much fun

Going from being single for some time to dating has been a little stressful. I’ve wanted to have someone in my life for awhile now but didn’t expect how it would make me feel in regards to my time.

I need down time to remain balanced, and I’ve been used to having a lot of it. I’m starting to notice myself getting irritable and emotional but I think it’s just a response to change. I think honoring my boundaries around time and letting go of trying to control things will help. Writing is helping too.

Actually allowing myself to like this guy is new for me too. I’m noticing that I still revert back to thoughts of hiding who I am and my sexuality and that doesn’t feel good.

Luckily I’ve done some work on myself and know that the fact that this is bothering me will make me seek to understand it which will make me so much more fulfilled. Just gotta remember that this anxiety won’t last forever if I feel it.