Really considering about cheating.

My boyfriend of 4 years. .. he's been so distant the last few months. He shows me no love. No affection. Nothing. I have tried to bring it up in conversation how a women needs love and affection. But he don't want to talk about it.

Recently he's been going out night time .. for a few hours. Alone. He don't answer his calls or texts .. so I suspect something is up. When I confront him. I'm the and one !

Night times .. he stays up all hours on the couch watching tv. .. while I go to bed .. alone. I lay there and wonder to myself. Wtf is going on .. why am I still here !?

Right now. Feeling lonely.. sad .. unattractive. Etc. It would be so easy to fall in the arms of another man. ...