Fighting attraction to someone.

Have you ever liked someone but also didn’t at the same time? It’s confusing the hell out of me, I have this friend and he’s always been just that, a friend. But recently I got out of a relationship (3-4 months ago) and now I’m starting to notice the more I hangout with this friend I’m attracted to him. But I’m also trying to fight the attraction because at the same time I’m not attracted to him, lol it’s so confusing. It’s almost like the shallowness in me says I could do better; but my heart cares for him. I’ve never been more confused in my lite; because I think if I truly loved him I wouldn’t be this confused or even think how I do? So is it not love? I guess what I’m trying to say is I constantly panic, I always thought I knew I’d know and everytime I get close to love I swear I never know. I hate being confused!

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Eidolon · M

Honestly? I think that if you remotely have an attraction to him, you should explore it.
Because he is a friend, you would always be so comfortable with your friendship with him, that you would hesitate to explore more with him. Ultimately you'd eventually just be suffocating yourself, and years later live with regrets of not knowing what could have been.
It's rather you just be transparent with him, even if it means telling him about the confusion. This way the truth is out there and the ball will be in his court to consider whether the feelings are mutual, or whether he is just going to brush it off as you being a goofball friend.... but at least you would not have to live with the indecision.

ScrewYou · 26-30, F

@Eidolon I have let him know, he’s aware I’m hella confused right now and he seems pretty confident in himself because he’s just chilled and doesn’t make me feel rushed about needing to know the answer to anything right now. It’s just all in my head and everytime I hangout with him now I’m kinda suffering because I just don’t wanna hurt him and I kinda see and know it’s coming…

Eidolon · M

@ScrewYou a million heartbreaks are still worth just 1 moment of true sincere love. Never hold back regardless of the destination being doomed. Most often the journey is immortalised more than the destination. Just continue being completely honest with him, and above all - with yourself.