I Have Something to Say

I feel like I'm stuck on a hamster wheel going in circles never accomplishing what I planned on doing I can't seem to.get anywhere I feel trapped and it always seems to be a downward shit spiral of crap that seems to reset when it seems to be almost over. Yes I get sad and lonely I hate people in extended periods and sometimes I scare myself by realizing I am such a lonely person and the only person for that cause is myself.