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my dad always hated me mainly cuz i am nothing like my big brothers, they are both study nerds with impressive high grades top of their class and stuff and now the are both doctors and i am nothing much i tired but i couldn't now every thing i do is not enough he is never satisfied and my little brother is showing promising results he will be a doctor one day so that makes me the loser of the family.
now after my brothers became doctors and made some big bucks they left the nest and the never call they never text not even during holy days, honestly i dont care we were never close i am glade they are gone i got alot of space now but dad seems very upset about it now he keep saying that he is disappointed of them and now he is looking at me hoping i will be different, i always tied to get his attention but he never cared i really hated him for that now i he is trying to get my attention and telling me not to be like them.
i feel sorry for him he was hoping so much from them and they just took off, i cant do the same thing it doesn't feel right i dont love him and i dont love any of my parents but i dont hate him now i pity him actually.