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[b]Friendship on SW?[/b]

I have met some great people on this place and I don't really believe that SW is full of idiots (or insolent peasants as I have called you many times before). But...to the "witty" males that have tried to befriend me...all of you with your poetry and eclectic music taste and long conversations about life and what's real and what's not...I do admire your mind. And talking to me about how you admired mine was definitely flattering. But did my mind stop being "admirable" once you realised I didn't want to be more "intimate"? Why spend hours talking to this "special friend" of yours if she's not that special after all? Or even a friend...? I hate it when people make me feel so special only to find out that they've been trying to get something from me and then watch them leave, complimenting and worshipping their new "victim". If friendship is not what you're really looking for then, please, take all your beautiful lies and leave. Why do I have to go through periods of anger and self - doubt just because you're not strong enough to be clear about what you really want and who you really are? And I know that I "shouldn't care about strangers on the internet" and I should probably "go get a life" but I find it stupid to pretend I don't care when I clearly spend most of my time on here.

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Coppercoil · M

An age old difficulty between people who are after different things. Sorry you've been frustrated by folks here lately.

My life is complicated enough without trying to hook up with people here or anywhere. I genuinely do seek real friendships here. Yet, if there is a romantic spark between me and a friend here, so be it, I'll appreciate and nurture it, but I won't let it define the relationship. I do believe that romance and friendship can coexist and never a kiss needs to be exchanged, and still it can be very rewarding. And if there is no spark.. I have plenty of those friends too. Who cares.. I enjoy just letting life be whatever it wants of be.

SW-User

@Coppercoil: Maybe that's the difference between me and you after all. I need things to be clear. I don't need rules or "schedules" defining my relationships but I definitely need to know where I'm going. If it's a friendship,it's a friendship. If there's a spark then that's wonderful but I don't call it a friendship. And if it's a relationship, it's always serious to me and I can't keep flirting with "friends". Also, I've pretty much made it clear many times before that I need attention and affection,even if admitting that I seek attention sounds bad. So,maybe that's where all my frustration comes from.

Coppercoil · M

@IDidNotFart: this actually sounds very healthy and you do know yourself quite well and what you need. I do admire it, even though it's different than my own internal logic. I really appreciate this about you. You are a good, loyal, and in many ways a very pure hearted woman. Just makes me appreciate you for who you are all the more.

SW-User

@Coppercoil: Well...thank you.