I Have Something to Say
Here I am again in this group. Like the other times, this not your problem, but I wanna talk about it, so if don't wanna read a big post about my problems, you don't need to. Just roll the page down and look for anothers misc posts to read.
Anyway, here I come. Today I wanna about my biggest regret until now, that was my choice of entering in a photography college. Now, don't understand me wrong. I love both photography and my college life. In college, I've discovered a new world of possibilities, made new great friends, find love, evolve like a person and find a way of showing to the others my visions of the world through the photography. Those things are a great experience in life and change me in so many levels that I not capable of recognizing me from the early me. But those things come to me through when I fought against myself and become to be more honest with me. And the truth is that this choice of entering into a photography college was forced to me by me and my early environment. At that time when I was finishing the middle school, I was passing through a suffocating phase of my life. I had left my job cause my grades was becoming down, so my father advised me to focus on my studies. So I did. I even made the Enem, the most important test here on Brazil, the test that can help you enter in public college (here, the public ones are best of all). My humans sciences grades were fine, but because of exacts sciences grades, I couldn't enter in a public college. And the pressure of my parents was so high. I felt horrible for this. I even left my job to focus on my studies, but in the end, it wasn't worth at all. But, I still had a chance, cause of this government program to help students enter in particular colleges. My friend gives me that idea. He said that I could make this easily. So I did. But in the time of making the registration, come to me one question. Which course I would do?? I actually never had think of that at all, and I was panicking cause the time was passing to fast and the registrations would come finish soo. I didn't know what to do. I was too afraid to make game design, the only course that I wanted to do, because of my grades in national tests, especially in maths. Eventually, come to me the option of making photography, one of the courses that I was thinking to do, but I had no idea how the course was going to be. Eventually, I made this decision, because I think it was better to make something than don't do nothing because of the fear.
The next year (last one) it's another complicated history for another day, but only to you know, it was a constant battle between the forces of me and the others, especially my parents. This last year it was such an important lesson to me, a life lesson that teaches me a lot of things and become a force for making a change in my life. About that, I had no regrets. My big one regret, it was choice photography like profession, because of this make the things more complicated than ever to me. My parents wanna expects things of me when I'll finish the college, and I won't go fulfill those expectations. I gonna use the lessons of photography in my life, like the hobby that it is, and nothing else than that. And this gonna brings me more problems, but hopefully, with those lessons that I learned in the past, I will be able to fight back against the world and becoming to tread my way.
For those who read this until now, I must l say that this is not half of the full situation, but I gonna stop here, cause what I wanted to say, I said. Thank you if read all of this. I needed to describe this situation to warn you not to make the same mistake I've had. If you one day feel like suffocating because of one situation, you can always have to power to do whatever you can to change that situation. For now, this is my advice for you
Good night 馃槾
Anyway, here I come. Today I wanna about my biggest regret until now, that was my choice of entering in a photography college. Now, don't understand me wrong. I love both photography and my college life. In college, I've discovered a new world of possibilities, made new great friends, find love, evolve like a person and find a way of showing to the others my visions of the world through the photography. Those things are a great experience in life and change me in so many levels that I not capable of recognizing me from the early me. But those things come to me through when I fought against myself and become to be more honest with me. And the truth is that this choice of entering into a photography college was forced to me by me and my early environment. At that time when I was finishing the middle school, I was passing through a suffocating phase of my life. I had left my job cause my grades was becoming down, so my father advised me to focus on my studies. So I did. I even made the Enem, the most important test here on Brazil, the test that can help you enter in public college (here, the public ones are best of all). My humans sciences grades were fine, but because of exacts sciences grades, I couldn't enter in a public college. And the pressure of my parents was so high. I felt horrible for this. I even left my job to focus on my studies, but in the end, it wasn't worth at all. But, I still had a chance, cause of this government program to help students enter in particular colleges. My friend gives me that idea. He said that I could make this easily. So I did. But in the time of making the registration, come to me one question. Which course I would do?? I actually never had think of that at all, and I was panicking cause the time was passing to fast and the registrations would come finish soo. I didn't know what to do. I was too afraid to make game design, the only course that I wanted to do, because of my grades in national tests, especially in maths. Eventually, come to me the option of making photography, one of the courses that I was thinking to do, but I had no idea how the course was going to be. Eventually, I made this decision, because I think it was better to make something than don't do nothing because of the fear.
The next year (last one) it's another complicated history for another day, but only to you know, it was a constant battle between the forces of me and the others, especially my parents. This last year it was such an important lesson to me, a life lesson that teaches me a lot of things and become a force for making a change in my life. About that, I had no regrets. My big one regret, it was choice photography like profession, because of this make the things more complicated than ever to me. My parents wanna expects things of me when I'll finish the college, and I won't go fulfill those expectations. I gonna use the lessons of photography in my life, like the hobby that it is, and nothing else than that. And this gonna brings me more problems, but hopefully, with those lessons that I learned in the past, I will be able to fight back against the world and becoming to tread my way.
For those who read this until now, I must l say that this is not half of the full situation, but I gonna stop here, cause what I wanted to say, I said. Thank you if read all of this. I needed to describe this situation to warn you not to make the same mistake I've had. If you one day feel like suffocating because of one situation, you can always have to power to do whatever you can to change that situation. For now, this is my advice for you
Good night 馃槾
